shaping the new – part three
11 Av 5779 – Aug. 12, 2019
the power of a single thought
“Thank H’Shem, a thousand fold,” I say to myself, because my perspective on perfectionism was changed with a single thought, “I am not ultimately required to meet my own expectations of myself in life; rather, I am truly accountable to H’Shem’s expectations of me.” Although my soul may only be reckoned as like unto a droplet of water in the ocean, I am still regarded as unique by G-d.
Therefore, by way of another analogy, “He counteth the number of the stars; He giveth them all their names” (Psalm 147:4, JPS 1917 Tanach). How much moreso does H’Shem care for each and every person on the face of the earth? Additionally, He sends His “messages” to us in subtle ways, sometimes as intuition, in order to establish His guidance.
So, I am not only held accountable to His commandments; I am also expected to follow H’Shem’s will for me as an individual with a personal mission in life. Furthermore, although I may have certain expectations of myself in life, some that might not even be genuinely my own, the greater focus of my efforts should be on the guiding light that H’Shem shines along the way, so as to steer me in the right direction. “In Thy light do we see light” (Ps. 36:10, JPS).
Life’s journey is a “gesher tzar me’od,” a very narrow bridge; I trust that G-d will provide a shining light, a ray of hope, to cast away the fear, so that I may travel unhindered along the path that bears my name, so to speak, according to H’Shem’s will for me.
Moreover, if I get sidetracked by my own perfectionism, meeting expectations that may differ from His, then I will only end up being a dawdler along the way. “Trust in the L-RD with all thy heart, And lean not upon thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, And He will direct thy paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6, JPS 1917 Tanach). Ultimately, it is up to me to change my ways, and align my heart with His Ways, so that I can reach attainment in accordance with my soul’s design – created, fashioned, and breathed into me by H’Shem – safeguarded along the way (Elokai Neshamah).